Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Writing - A Vineyard

It may sound odd, but I miss working in the fields as a field hand. There is something about spending your days outside, walking in the dirt, and feeling the air swirl around you that is very enjoyable. Not that I dislike my job. In fact, one of the great things about working at a magazine company is that feeling of creating something once the magazine is finished, that is very rewarding. It is even more so when you are lucky enough to have written a few of the articles in the magazine. The pieces that you get published feel as if they are an extension of yourself. And when you get praised for them, it is a great experience and thrill. Still, I'd love to spend the summer days hiking through the country, or riding a horse along the edge of some vineyard as I made my way up to the sagebrush covered hills.

This following is a piece I wrote for the magazine I work at.


Vineyards

Row upon row of lush, green leaves spread out
over the undulating hills. In vast array they stand
still, entwined around the support of their trellises,
only the clapping of wavering foliage speaks out
towards heaven. These vines are silent and inviting,
not tall and constraining like corn, nor blocked from
view of the moon’s tears or the winking of the stars
like canopies of cherries and apples. Vineyards are
different. Vineyards play.

Grapevines spread out and embrace one another
until they are indiscernible from each other. Walking
around a vineyard in the day, or gazing over its
wondrous expanse at night, there is a stillness and
depth not found in orchards or wheat fields. These
vines are not tame. They adventurously seek out the
new, exploring undiscovered directions as fast as they
can. A vineyard is wilderness temporarily contained to
a hillside. Constrained by years of pruning and care,
the vines always seek to break free. But they can only
leap forth when they bear their fruit.

A clutch of grapes sallies out from the emerald
green stocks and are gathered and tethered before
they fall and die on the ground. Harvested, they
are then torn, crushed, and drained. But from this
vicious-sounding routine, the resulting drink is where
a vineyard breaks free and shows its wild nature once
more — vibrant and more vivacious than before.
The new crushed and cultured wine smells of the
hills where it was born. It tastes of its neighboring
flowers and trees. It captures the smell and taste of
a lost garden that even the oldest gnarled vines can
only vaguely remember. With the ability to create and
capture a mood, wine brings the rugged landscape of
its youth into your home.

During the summer, a vineyard is quiet as you walk
through the braided green and brown vines. Gravel
scrapes and grinds together under your shoes as
cicadas chirp out in long fearful notes. Wind rushes
over you with a howl through the spring and fall.
In winter, falling snow wraps itself on the vineyard
paths in hushed, biting tones that ring out with every
step. But all you will hear from the vines, as we dance
around the sun, is the small pattering of the clapping
leaves. The vineyard patiently waits its time.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

One of My Favorite Hymns and Martyrdom

Last weekend I drove home to Portland to attend Reformation Night. This year's festivities were a bit unusual in that they started at 3 p.m. and as such it was more of a Reformation Day. Anyway, I attended RCC that Sunday and was overjoyed to sing one of my favorite hymns, Rise Again, Ye Lion Hearted. Here is a link to a sampling of the tune - Well, it is actually very slightly different than RCC's version, but it is 90% the same. It's a little slow on that site but at RCC it is sung to a much faster rhythm with the piano being played forcefully and with much gusto.

As a side note, while the song is about the lion hearted Christians whom died a martyrs death, martyrdom is not something a Christian should want. It is rather something a Christian when faced with the inevitability of that prospect, should not be afraid of. Instead a Christian should accept it as what God has chosen for them, and to stand steadfast. A subtle difference, but a difference nonetheless. I think that without recognizing this subtle difference, martyrdom is perhaps romanticized by many when it should not be - A form of "Godly" Christian suicide to the depressed Christian who knows that suicide is out of the question - Which of course is not Godly at all.


Rise Again, Ye Lion Hearted

Rise again , ye lion-hearted, saints of early Christendom.
Whither is your strength departed, wither gone your martyrdom?
Lo, love's light is on them, glory's flame upon them
And their will to die doth quell, even the lord and prince of hell.

These the men by fear unshaken, facing danger dauntlessly;
These no witching lust hath taken, lust that lures to vanity.
Mid the roar and rattle of tumultuous battle
In desire they soar above all that earth would have them love.

Great of heart, they know not turning, honor, gold they laugh to scorn.
Quench desires within them burning, by no earthly passion torn.
Mid the lions' roaring, songs of praise out poring,
Joyously they take their stand on the arena's bloody sand.

Would to God that I might even, as the martyred saints of old,
With the helping hand of Heaven, steadfast stand in battle bold!
O my God, I pray thee, in the combat stay me.
Grant that I may ever be loyal, stanch, and true to Thee.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Quantum Physics & Music - God's Echo


And God said, "Let there be light," and there was light. 4 God saw that the light was good, and He separated the light from the darkness. 5 God called the light "day," and the darkness he called "night." And there was evening, and there was morning—the first day. --- Genesis 1:3

The heavens sing the glory of God the skies proclaim the work of his hands. Psalm 19:1

If you've spent anytime studying quantum physics then you'll know that one of the main things that pops up over and over is vibration. According to the de Broglie wave, all matter (which is energy) vibrates. String theory postulates that everything is made up of vibrating strings. The search for the Higgs Boson AKA the "God Particle" is the search for a particle that would tie together the Standard Model of particle physics. The main problem with the Standard Model so far, has been its inability to properly account for Mass/Energy/Matter. They believe the Higgs Boson particle, if it exists, will account for why things have mass. Now, another wrinkle to throw in here is that energy/mass/matter which vibrates, has that energy to vibrate from the "big bang". As a Christian this is ridiculous to me. There was no big bang, so where does the energy which we can measure, and see, come from? Why does everything in the universe vibrate? I'll get to that in a second, but first, music.

All vibrations are actually musical notes. Well, maybe not musical, but they are notes. The simplest definition of music is that it is 'organized sound'. So, I'd say that all vibrations are musical. The human ears might not be able to pickup all the notes from all the vibrations but they are still there. Everything in the universe is vibrating and putting off sound. God's universe is an organized universe, therefore all of the universe is putting of Music since it is organized sound - I realize there are stricter definitions of music that would say these vibrations aren't music, but this is my blog so I'll choose the definition :) . Maybe I'm crazy but this makes a lot of sense to me. We are told in the Psalms that all of creation sings God's praises. I suppose many just take that as poetic, but seeing as how everything in the universe actually does give off sound and music, it does seem like everything is actually singing God's praises.

Ok, now for the deep weird. Since I don't believe in the Big Bang, and I believe God spoke all of creation into existence, then where does this energy, these vibrations, come from? If we look back at Genesis God is speaking or using organized sound/music to create. Now, I'm probably crazy but it seems like since we know all of creation vibrates, and God spoke all of creation into existence, could it be that all of creation vibrates because all of creation has an imprint or an echo of God's spoken word? I'd say yes. All of creation at its basic level is composed of vibrations or echos from God speaking everything into existence. It seems sort of amazing to me that all of our most advanced science keeps coming to vibrations or musical notes as the smallest and basic building block of creation. Our God is a personal God. His song and word are what gives us life.

PSALM 150
Praise the LORD.
Praise God in his sanctuary;
praise him in his mighty heavens.
Praise him for his acts of power;
praise him for his surpassing greatness.
Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet,
praise him with the harp and lyre,
praise him with tambourine and dancing,
praise him with the strings and flute,
praise him with the clash of cymbals,
praise him with resounding cymbals.
Let everything that has breath praise the LORD.
Praise the LORD.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Movie Review - Moulin Rouge - A Story About Love

This story is a story about love.

One of my favorite movies, Moulin Rouge is a story of love. Not romantic/idealized love, or selfish love, but sacrificial love. Set in Paris around 1890, Moulin Rouge is about a young writer, Christian (Ewan McGregor), and his love of the Moulin Rouge's main attraction, Satine (Nicole Kidman). I suppose the first thing that must be said is the movie is nothing like the trailers. It seems that the movie studio decided to stick every racy or suggestive scene that is in the movie and cram it into the trailer hoping that it would attract a larger audience. Thankfully there is very little in Moulin Rouge that detracts from the beautiful story.

Often when asked why I enjoy this movie, I'm left a little dumbfounded as to a proper answer. I could go off on how the movie combines various genres of music (Opera, Rock, Pop, Tango, etc.) into amazing, and beautiful love songs. Or I could talk on how visually creative and stunning the movie is. But there is something more, something else besides the music and imagry that touches the heart. I think Doug Jones in his review of the movie HERE did an excellent job of touching on some of it. The movie brings together a love story that is about real love, sacrificial love. It touches you with those songs and silly phrases of love that are practically cliche. Those phrases however, are only used so often because they ring true.

The first time I viewed the movie I sat in my chair just thinking about what I had viewed. It shocks you the first time through with just how good of a movie it is. Moulin Rouge sings out and doesn't miss a note or a beat as it weaves its story of love. An absolutely amazing movie. I would encourage everyone to see it.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Living In God's House - Part 1- The Tie That Binds

1 Timothy 3:15
15 but if I am delayed, I write so that you may know how you ought to
conduct yourself in the house of God, which is the church of the living
God, the pillar and ground of the truth.
Galatians 6:10
10 Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all, especially to
those who are of the household of faith.

This is the first shot in a salvo of posts on God's family and how we are to act in that family. Through the lenses of the various family relationships I'll try to expound on the nature and origins of Christian charity, conduct, and love.

First off, no, this post has nothing to do with Dr. Gregory House. I was looking for a picture of a house to accompany this post and his popped up. I enjoy the show, so hey, might as well use it. But I suppose if you are looking for deep meaning then Dr. House is an expert in figuring out what ails us and I think Christian relationships are in trouble these days. So maybe his picture and show is a metaphor for the Church body and..... Nope, sorry, couldn't keep that up, his picture has no significance at all. Anyways...


In the New Testament we find something rather peculiar that most people like to forget is in their Bible.

For I am come to set a man against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law. --- Matthew 10:35

Jesus sets out in this verse to remove us from our families. But he doesn't just leave us out in the cold. He forms a new family for us in Matthew 12:50.

For whoever does the will of my Father in heaven is my brother and sister and mother."
--- Matthew 12:50

From these verses is where we get the custom of referring to fellow Christians as either brothers or sisters in Christ. The problem though, is that often when Christians refer to each other saying they will treat them as any brother or as any sister in Christ, they view it, and are saying it, as if being a sibling in Christ is the lowest common denominator. They say it as if they are just giving in to the fact that you are indeed a Christian. They say it as if they are saying, "Yup, you are a Christian. So I guess I have to see you sometimes." But there is no love behind their words. Not only this, but many will not treat their fellow Christian siblings any better than the pagans they know through various activities. In fact, many will instead treat their pagan acquaintances with a much better sense of charitableness and love than how they treat their Christian siblings. They take interests or other things like music, sports, books, poetry, work, or who they see most often, and treat those people (even if they are pagans) in a better manner than their Christian brothers. They have set their own personal likes, desires and interests above what God has told them to love. They take that which binds us stronger than anything else, including blood, family, or nationality, and they put it as the least important quality for friendships, charitableness and love.

Having a brother or sister in Christ is a greater commitment and burden than we would like it to be. Too often we treat our pagan acquaintances better than our fellow Christians. But we are not to be friends with pagans, 1 Corinthians 15:33. How will God deal with us when He sees that we have treated our pagan acquaintances in a better manner than His sons and daughters? Will He wink at how we have cast aside our brothers and sisters in Christ and taken up in their place friendships with pagans because they liked the same sports as us? Or because they enjoyed the same music? Or played the same instrument?

God set us up in a new family, and with that new family we live in God's house. It is not a coincidence that throughout the New Testament after Jesus has given us our new family, that many times believers are referred to as brothers. God has set rules (Family Rules) by which we are to live with our Christian family(Most are found in the New Testament) . And I believe many of those rules which he lays out in the New Testament are directly related and more easily understood in the context of family and how a family is to properly function.

The first rule He sets out for us is that God's family of believers is who we are to love, and to care for. That family circle is what we are, and those ties are to bind us together more than any other. To treat pagans in a more courteous or charitable manner than our fellow believers, or to be better friends with any pagan, over any sibling in Christ, is an affront to God.

We are commanded to be closer to each other, and love each other more than any other. Let's stop saying we are family, and instead actually start living as God tells us to live in relation to that family. Let's act like a family! In the next post I'll comment on how God's house and family is supposed to function according to the Bible.


God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. In this way, love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment, because in this world we are like him. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
We love because he first loved us. If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. And he has given us this command: Whoever loves God must also love his brother.
First John 4:16-21

Monday, October 12, 2009

A Few of My Favorite Things - Poetry - Rilke

Sometime ago, a former friend introduced me to the works of Rainer Maria Rilke. While flipping through their book of his poetry, this particular poem stood out to me. I instantly took a liking to the work and it has been one of my favorite poems ever since.


Exposed On The Cliffs Of The Heart

Exposed on the cliffs of the heart. Look, how tiny down
there,
look: the last village of words and, higher,
(but how tiny) still one last
farmhouse of feeling. Can you see it?
Exposed on the cliffs of the heart. Stoneground
under your hands. Even here, though,
something can bloom; on a silent cliff-edge
an unknowing plant blooms, singing, into the air.
But the one who knows? Ah, he began to know
and is quiet now, exposed on the cliffs of the heart.
While, with their full awareness,
many sure-footed mountain animals pass
or linger. And the great sheltered birds flies, slowly
circling, around the peak's pure denial.--But
without a shelter, here on the cliffs of the heart...

Sunday, October 11, 2009

To Enter The Ministry Or Not - Part 2 - Sacrifice

Growing up in a pastor's family, I've been witness to many conversations over the years with various individuals involved in the ministry, or thinking of going into the ministry. Inevitably, you hear why each of these individuals either went into the ministry, or are planning on going into it. Occasionally, perhaps 35% of the time, the person will mention "sacrifice". And after some time hearing this word in conversations of the ministry, coupled with the results of many of their ministries, alarm bells would go off in my head when I heard this word. The typical story was this; Ran a successful or moderately successful life, wanted to do something for God so I sacrificed my previous occupation and commitments to join the ministry. Now, occasionally their story would differ, the previous life wasn't successful at all, but that is a topic for another post.

Let's do a little thought experiment. Person says they are sacrificing their previous vocation and life to enter the ministry. My first question is, who gave you that previous life? God did. OK, so what's basically happening is God has given you a gift, you in turn took that gift God has given to you and then threw it back saying, "No, I don't want this. What I really want to do is to be in the ministry, and it's really for you". Well, this seems very odd. God gives you a gift and you reject his gift, saying that you want to do this instead, and it's for him. But this has nothing to do with God and sacrificing for him. What it instead has to do with is that you are rejecting God's gift to you and "sacrificing" it to him on your own alter of false meekness, and selfishness.

From what I can tell the spot that most closely resembles sacrificing ones life to enter the ministry is Judges 11:30-40. In that story a young woman is forced, because of a vow made by her father, to never get married and to serve God in the ministry. It was not a happy occasion and was a curse on Jephthah and the cutting off of his line.

If you think that you are making a sacrifice by entering the ministry, don't do it. 98 out of 100 times it shows poor motives. Instead, consecrate your life to God in all the small tasks of raising a family, doing your job, even mowing the lawn. Do it all to the glory of God. It might take a year, it may take 20, but eventually those seemingly small, mundane works, will unfold and bloom into a beautiful symphonic arrangement. Just be patient and God will eventually unveil his piece to you. Then you will see how your meager works, those notes you had wished weren't flat, those that you thought were out of place, fit in with his grand arrangement.

"Life has a melody. A rhythm of notes which become your existence once played in harmony with God's plan."

Judges 11:30-40 And Jephthah vowed a vow unto the LORD, and said, If thou shalt without fail deliver the children of Ammon into mine hands, Then it shall be, that whatsoever cometh forth of the doors of my house to meet me, when I return in peace from the children of Ammon, shall surely be the LORD's, and I will offer it up for a burnt offering. So Jephthah passed over unto the children of Ammon to fight against them; and the LORD delivered them into his hands. And he smote them from Aroer, even till thou come to Minnith, even twenty cities, and unto the plain of the vineyards, with a very great slaughter. Thus the children of Ammon were subdued before the children of Israel. And Jephthah came to Mizpeh unto his house, and, behold, his daughter came out to meet him with timbrels and with dances: and she was his only child; beside her he had neither son nor daughter. And it came to pass, when he saw her, that he rent his clothes, and said, Alas, my daughter! thou hast brought me very low, and thou art one of them that trouble me: for I have opened my mouth unto the LORD, and I cannot go back. And she said unto him, My father, if thou hast opened thy mouth unto the LORD, do to me according to that which hath proceeded out of thy mouth; forasmuch as the LORD hath taken vengeance for thee of thine enemies, even of the children of Ammon. And she said unto her father, Let this thing be done for me: let me alone two months, that I may go up and down upon the mountains, and bewail my virginity, I and my fellows. And he said, Go. And he sent her away for two months: and she went with her companions, and bewailed her virginity upon the mountains. And it came to pass at the end of two months, that she returned unto her father, who did with her according to his vow which he had vowed: and she knew no man. And it was a custom in Israel,that the daughters of Israel went yearly to lament the daughter of Jephthah the Gileadite four days in a year.